Spring is coming finally, even though for us here in Denmark March proved to be the warmest one in years. Mother Nature once reminded us that winter was not all done just yet. Almost throughout the whole year I have about 8 – 10 candles, that I light every evening in my living room and turn off all other lights. That is my down time, both when I just relax on my couch or watch television. Last night as I was just about to settle down for the evening, I noticed that one of the candles looked different in the flames, which it does sometimes if you notice it. As I have taken a few photos of candles before, I wondered if I could capture the difference in the flame. There were a few options while the flame burned and I turned it one way and another way and choose this one. The flame almost looks like it is split into two ways and reminds me that – in my case – at times, my life being hard of hearing is like a two sided life. One life is me at home alone in silence, not reading lips, no noise to make it hard to hear what is being said. The other side is me when I like to be out there with other people, some I take effort to get to know and others I say a brief hello on the way out from a store or where I am.
While I took the photos, it also reminded me of a poem I had heard and saved from back in 6th grade. I think it is in USA, written by the Danish author Tove Ditlevsen. I have translated the poem as best as I could and inserted it into my photo of the flame. I kind of like the poem, because it means so many things in so many ways. For me, among some of the reasons I like the poem; it is about trusting people when you speak with a friend. Sometimes they forget that I am actually hard of hearing and I have to remind them, either by a silly joke or gently asking them to repeat the question. When a sales person in a shop is speaking too fast and too low, it just makes me look like a big question, which is quite clear apparently I’ve been told, then I have to ask to have it repeated again. Or when I literally out of the blue am surprised by meeting a person on a Danish TV series set while waiting, learn that among her university class she had chosen sign language and in fact on that same day were going to exam in it, asked me to go through the hand alphabet which I at least can remember. That provided a good opportunity to chat while we waited to be called in as an extra on the series. I also learned that she had even started to read lips herself as she had learned how much “normal” hearing people can mumble at times. I just couldn’t help but smile a little and was just happy to have met her that day.
So with spring slowly coming my way, I can’t wait to get out and spend time either with a book, meeting people, being with my friends, or packing my camera and taking a stroll in the nearby forest – just a 5 minute walk from my building – or with my bike to the ocean which is about ½ hour from my place. I will share some of my photos with you, showing what it looks like here in Denmark. It may be just the small park across the street from my building, the ocean where I like to stay a few hours during summer, or Copenhagen where I take a stroll sometimes for hours just enjoying the crowd of people or finding a place to have my cup of tea for the day.
The Quiet Photographer